I. AM. ME.

It's late, Jordan is peacefully sleeping, I'm still awake... so I thought I'd do this cute little post!

I am: So content right now. Jordan and I just had an awesome night together and I came to realize how much I really appreciate and love him.

I think: I like to try new food but really I don't.

I know: Who I am but I continue to discover new things about myself all the time.

I want: To one day travel the world and experience life in other countries.

I have: So many things to be thankful for. I don't deserve half of them.

I dislike: When the shower curtain sticks to my leg. It makes me so angry inside and I always end up having a rough morning.

I miss: Running. One of the many things I have slowly given up being pregnant.

I fear: Too many things. I know my life usually revolves around my unnecessary fears and it drives me crazy. Something I continue to work on everyday.

I feel: Emotional. My thoughts are completely overwhelming right now.

I smell: Our musty swamp cooler. I look forward to the day when I can appreciate air conditioning in my own home.

I crave: Honey nut cheerios. Every week is something different.

I usually: Take 2 showers everyday. Why? Nobody knows.

I search: The internet for advice on preparing for motherhood.

I wonder: How many children I'll have. What they'll look like. What my life will be like in 10 years. Where we will live. When I will die. What the world will be like in 50 years. (Lot's of things)

I regret: Only 2 things in my life. But I learned so much from those experiences and I try not to dwell on my emotions connected with them.

I love: My husband. He is my life and I would be lost without him. We have grown together and have a deep understanding of our relationship.

I care: About everyone and everything. My family, friends, animals on the street, people without homes, and many more things. I have a heart that aches when I see sadness or pain, it's aweful.

I always: Wash my face before I go to bed. I can't stand the idea of falling asleep with mascara on and waking up with puffy black eyes.

I worry: That I won't be a good mom and my children will be out of control.

I am not: Good at talking about my feelings. I keep things inside until they build up and explode.

I remember: Sucking my thumb and rubbing my blanket on my cheek until I was like 7 years old. I still have that silly blanket!

I believe: Everything happens for a reason and we should open our eyes and learn from the cards that life deals us.

I dance: On occasion for Jordan. Usually we both end up laughing so hard my dancing doesn't last too long.

I sing: In the car, on occasion. I have a hard time remembering lyrics to songs so I never sing them cuz that's embarrasing when you constantly sing the wrong words.

I don't always: Clean the bathroom. I know it's disgusting but I absolutely HATE it! I clean my house everyday but put off the bathroom longer then I should.

I argue: When Jordan decides he needs some new toy.. especially motorcyles. That's usually the only time we argue.

I write: On my blog. I really suck at writing cards, notes, etc... I wish I were better at keeping a journal or writing down my feelings.

I win: Spider Solitair a lot. It took many hours of me playing at work to master the game.

I lose: At Bingo. I never win Bingo and it drives me crazy! It's not a hard game, there is no strategy, yet I lose time after time.

I wish: I could find homes for all of the stray cats in our parking lot, especially Mr. Dibbles. I feel so badly for them.

I never: Say I'm going to do something then not do it. I have a hard time with people who commit to something and then flake out all the time.

I don't understand: Politics. I have never been interested and I never know what they are talking about. I should be more involved I guess.

I can usually be found: At my house or in my bed. I love to sleep in, and take naps. I spend a lot of time by myself when I'm not working and Jordan is.

I am scared: Of losing someone I love. It is one of my biggest fears.

I need: To be loved. I always have and always will.

I forget: Everyones Birthday. I am HORRIBLE at remembering birthdays and always feel so terrible when I forget.

I am happy: When I'm on the beach. It is one of the most relaxing experiences for me. Too bad we live in Utah huh?